TIMING!

So, this week, I noticed a huge increase in CM...and I knew that it was O time...last month was either CD30,31,32 (it was Christmas, so I dont know for sure), so I was hoping that this month would be the same. I had everything planned perfectly...we would BD on Wednesday (CD28), then again on CD30 (we were going out of town on Saturday to MIL house, so we couldn't on Satuday...but I'd drop the dogs off at my friend's house on Friday night, so we'd be able to BD without the dogs around - double good)...and then, if needed - again on CD32 (Sunday)...

Here's to great plans...

Started off well enough, got in a good BD on Wednesday...

Then, Thursday night, I started to feel the scratchy feeling in my throat - uhh ohh!!

Friday morning, temp was still normal (no fever) - and low, so I definitely didn't O on Thursday - but by lunch time, I was feeling bad. The kids at school were giving presentations, so I had to stick around...and by the end of the day, I was feeling horrible!! Took an OPK at 11am, and it was glaringly negative, so was hoping that we could skip our Friday BD, and I'd feel well by Sunday and we could catch the eggie then...but I kept think that I must be Oing, cause I was really getting all of the signs - high, soft CP, tons of EWCM, etc. I decided to take an OPK right after school let out at 3:30pm (cause I really had the feeling that it was just my bad luck that the timing would be like this - ugg!), and to my surprise, it was as close to + as I've ever seen it...since reading the Consumers Report about OPKs being negative even when Oing, I decided that I'd fake out DH, and BD anyway...so, I rested for a while, pretended that I was feeling fine when I was talking to DH, but was just feeling worse and worse...but, I was also feeling major O pains...I dont know if that was my body actually Oing, or just preparing to O, but I KNOW that it meant that O was very near!

Finally, I took my temp, and it was 101.87 - that's really high for me - and I used my BBT, so it was probably higher than that...and so I finally broke down and told DH what was going on...ugh!! Poor guy...it was like, you have to do it right now, but I feel awful, so I'm just going to lay here like a blob, oh, and you cant kiss me either, and I'm not going to kiss you...so, anyway, we decided that it just wasn't meant to be this month...I still held out a bit of hope cause we BD on Wednesday, so I didn't want to take anything that would be bad for a baby, or dry up CM, so I ended up taking 2 Extra strength Tylenol...that definitely helped with the fever...

Well, I woke up at 4am, and had just huge gobs of EWCM...and my temp was only 100.7, and I was feeling a little better (at that point, I knew that I just had a cold and not the flu - if I'd had the flu, we would have just skipped the month, cause when I get the flu, I get really sick!)...so, I woke DH up from deep sleep...and told him I wanted to do it right now...so, I was a - slightly more animated than last night - hot blob...and we managed to do it...I elevated my pelvis for an hour afterward, and put in an Instead cup as planned (think I put the cup in wrong - am hoping that doesn't mess things up), the only thing (besides the fever of course) which didn't go as planned was that I hadn't eaten much or had much to drink - so my CM wasn't quite as watery as I had hoped (if I'd thought about it, I would have taken some Robitussin, but I wasn't quite thinking that clearly)...

So, we went off to MIL house, and my fever had broken...but then we walked around till 3pm (some leaking from BDing in the morning - think I really put that Instead cup in wrong, cause when I did pull it out 6 hours later, there was a big snot rocket of either semen or CM caught on the plastic edge), so it goes...anyway...definitely felt worse than earlier in the day, went to bed at 4pm, and by 7pm when I woke up fever was 100.64...then ate, watched a movie, relaxed - and ate ice cream!! Before going to bed, fever was 98.97 (much better)!

Woke up Sunday with BBT of 98.39...not a fever, but much higher than my normal - even post-O BBT, so I still dont know if I Oed...

Well, after all that, DH is kinda sick right now...I feel better...still have a little bit of EWCM, but I'm going to go with that we did what we could to catch this eggie...

Should be able to get an accurate BBT tomorrow morning, and I'm literally waiting in anticipation to go to bed tonight so that I can wake up tomorrow and find out if I Oed...it is the strangest things that we TTC people look forward to:
- peeing on sticks (and usually getting a bit of pee on ourselves also
- going to bed (cause it makes the time go by faster until we wake up to take our BBT)
- waking up (to take BBT)
- peeing (cause then we can look at the toilet paper for evidence of CM)
- sticking our fingers "up there" (to feel CP)
weird stuff!

Anyway...will update when I know for sure if I Oed...
Either way, am not holding up that much hope for this cycle, simply because my fever was so high, that it probably killed the spermies before they even had a chance...

Also, by Dr. appt is on February 16 - when I should be 9DPO (if I Oed on Saturday when I think I did), so I'm going to test right before going there (I'm OK with a negative, I'd rather just know so that I wont hold out hope!!)...

Neverending comedy of TTC...

So, yesterday, I felt the lube (just a little but it felt right for O)...so, I decided that we will DTD, and I have everything ready...
But, DH is running 12 miles...so, he is tired - and smelly...

So, off to the shower...that was fun, all cleaned up...
Put the dogs in the back, and pretend to walk out the door (open it and slam it shut)...and then sneak into the bedroom...feel like teenagers sneaking off for some fun...exciting...

Poor guy is so tired, we dont fool around much, just get right to it...since I'm not warmed up, I got the Preseed right there to squeeze in - works perfectly...he gets cramps etc from the run...but finish beautifully...insert Instead cup as planned...relax and snuggle...and then 2 minutes later, my mom calls - oh crap, its 6pm and we were supposed to pick her up (she just came into town) to go to dinner...so, instead of snuggling, off we go...I still have the cup in - and I'm so rushed, that I didn't even get to wipe down there - so I'm dripping a bit and everything...ugh!

So is the trials of TTC:)

Well, dont quite know if that bit of EWCM was the real thing, but I definitely feel close...OPKs are still negative, but as I said before, I'm kinda ignoring those...CM for the next two days will tell the tale and BBT will confirm it...I really hope this is it...

Going to try to do: Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday this week - or at least till O is confirmed...

C'mon baby - catch that EGGIE!!!

AHH!!

I feel a LITTLE BIT more "lube" down there...please let it be a sign...that is all!

SLEEPY!!

Maybe sleeping more than 6 hours/night will help me O earlier?

I hate being patient!

OMG - I'm such a liar!

So, today I was talking with a co-worker about looking at houses, DH and I are thinking of getting a larger house in prep for baby to be...but, I was telling her that we were getting a larger house because we were running out of space in our house now...cause we had too much stuff (WHATEVER!)

Well, she hints that I should start thinking about starting a family if I'm going to be getting a bigger house and all that...so, what do I say? No, of course I dont tell the truth which is that I've been trying since NOVEMBER and all I think about day and night is trying to have a baby...no, not at all...I recoil in horror at the thought...saying "Oh no, we are no where near ready to have a baby"...

In my mind, I am thinking to myself WHAT A LIAR!! I mean, this is my closest friend at work, and I'm not even telling her that we are actively trying to have a baby and that it means more to me than anything else...

But, I think this is why most people think that having a baby is so easy...because when I do get pregnant...I will say, oh it just happened...bull!

I'm also lying to DH, but this is an ok lie...DH gets stressed easy, so it would distract him from DTD if he thinks that it is only for baby making...so, I told him that I'm Oing on Valentines Day...all I can say is that I BETTER not be Oing on V-day (that would be about CD40!!), I should know if I caught the egg by then, but I'm not telling him that...cause I dont want him to stress out about it...

ANyways, I'm a liar...and an impatient one at that...

I'm checking everything:
-BBT
-OPKs

to figure out if I'm Oing or not, and I'm simply not yet...am trying to be patient, but, I'm already at CD20...and no sign of O...just hope that it comes soon!!

One week of trying...

Well, this will definitely be a TMI blog today...

So, we BD on M, W, Sa...
I got negative OPK every single day this week, but yesterday, it really did seem "less negative" then the other times - the line was not as dark as the control, but it was much darker then it had been previously...along with that, CM was much more, and Cervix (I know, told you TMI) was much higher and super soft...so, I think if we caught it, yesterday was the day...

Today, it is back to completely negative...ugh! I dont even know if I'm actually ovulating...if this continues, I gotta see a doctor...

So, I think Im going to start temping, if for nothing else, then just to see if I'm actually ovulating...

Feeling really frustrated right now...I don't *need* to be pregnant this month or anything, but it would be nice to at least know that my body is actually working correctly...

Waiting for Ovulation...

I've been trying to stay away from posting, cause I didn't want to think about this as much as I have been, but I am anyways, so what the heck (specially with a possible 2WW coming up)...

Waiting is the hardest part...
Especially when it is my first time *trying*...
I am now 14 days, which means it should be O time, but I don't think it is...

yesterday, I had no signs of O, but today, I'm feeling *horny* (am I supposed to even write that)...anyways, I'm basically feeling like I want to do it, and whenever I feel that way, I'm pretty sure it is O time...

Last night, we BD with no protection...DH already thinks that we are pregnant, but I know that it isn't that easy, and I definitely dont want to get my hopes up...specially with all the biking that he did a few months ago...I dont think his little guys will recover for at least 2 more months...

Today was a relaxation day, DH got home late...
Tomorrow is date night, which means that we get to BD again...if the horny keeps up, then tomorrow could be *the* possible day for the month...

Oh, this sounds so corny - and I've already written it more than once, but I'd really love a BFP for Christmas!!

PS-Am I extra cool cause I used all the abbreviations properly?:)
PPS-This is our first month TTC, and I'm already this obsessed...ugh, you'd think that waiting 32 years would make me a bit more patient!