NIPPLES!!!!

Ok, so, I keep saying to myself that I'm not pregnant...I keep trying to repeat it as much as possible to convince myself that it is the truth...I give myself every reason not to think that it could happen...

But, since 2DPO, I've had sore nipples - and I KNOW that it can not possibly be from being pregnant, because the baby wouldn't have even implanted yet...so, why in the world were they sore at 2DPO?? It was probably the Metformin - cause this was my first month on it...right?

anyway, my nipples got less sore until yesterday, and now they are more sore (not really "sore" - just sensitive - and I have to ask myself - am I imagining it or making it happen simply because I want it so bad??

My chart is different then any other month also, I had increasing temps, and then today a sharp drop - could this be an implantation dip? But, there are so many not-pregnant charts that have that and so many people have charts that are different some months - that's probably what it is - and I'm just setting myself up for disappointment...

My drop today dropped to my normal post-O temps...so, might it just stay at this temp??

I'm definitely not having any other signs, don't have to pee excessively, don't have tons of creamy CM, no implantation bleeding at all...no "feel" down there that a little one might be digging in...

But, I have sore nipples...and I'm looking forward to going to bed, because I am looking forward to waking up, because I want to take my temperature...and, soon, find out what is happening from here...

I always test, every month, as much as I want - usually starting at around 7DPO...and just keep testing until AF shows...but, this month is different - I want it so bad that I'm actually scared to test...I'm scared of the results...

I have basically told DH that we are out this month...I dont want him to get his hopes up either - specially this month...cause I just want it so bad...

Here's to sticky beans and dreams coming true...

(I don't even know why I'm writing this - I'm not even writing it on JM - I just need to get it out of my system, but I dont want anyone to know...)